pitter patter, life goes by

it ’s raining outside, the soft patter, the swoosh of tires on wet road.

i sit and think of my life, rising up in a sworl, evolving before my very eyes, falling apart and coming together all at once… i realize finally the flow and the flux of it all… that it never stops, it is never sure, never certain, never staid.

for the first time in my life, i find myself planning years in advance, thinking about where i want to be, with who, and what i want to be doing, adapting to the ever changing circumstances, pondering life, love, happiness along with the practical details… realizing that i can’t keep straddling the line, waiting to see what might be an option next, but must make concrete decisions that take me down unknown paths…

it’s, maybe, just a little freaky.

~ by velvetmonkeywrench on 18 May, 2009.